Since being on the School of Worship Outreach, God has radically been working on my heart! I could never say this has been an easy trip to be on. But then again God hasn't asked us to take the easy route! After all it days say in James 1:2-4 "
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect that you may be perfect and complete lacking in nothing."
I have found this verse to be very true, since this trip so far has had trial after trial come up. It's funny how in the moments where you are really having to choose to have the right attitude and even keep the faith when things look blique, that you find God is pulling you closer, teaching you more about His character and wooing you even more into a loving relationship with Him. Even more I have been realizing utter need for Him in my life! I can't make it without Him!
Knowing a little bit about just how this trip has been a battle will give you better insight to why I say I can't help but to worship Jesus. I have been falling so in love with Him and can't imagine living my life without Him. Every time I get to lead worship the fact that God has been showing me more of himself moves me to sing, moves me to cry, moves me to shouting or even laughing out of the joy I have in Him.
I am committed to giving my whole heart to Jesus daily, I am committed to sharing His heart with others, and I am committed to learning more about His character so I too can be like the four living creatures in Revelation 4-5 being in utter amazement in every moment by the beautiful splendor of God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit. For a few months I have been stuck thinking about how much I don't know about God in comparison to how much I do know. I desire to uncover the ministries of Him.
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| Leading worship at the Detroit Tent Revival |
While we were in Detroit, MI one of the gentlemen, who was one of the evangelists, was sharing about Solomon when he built the alter and put himself on it humbling himself and learning to live your life on the alter of God. Calling me even more into the call to missions. In Philippians 1:21-25 it says "
For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain. If I am to live in the flesh, that means fruitful labor for me. Yet which I shall choose I cannot tell. I am hard pressed between the two. My desire is to depart and be with Christ, for that is far better. But to remain in the flesh is more necessary on your account. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain and continue with you all, for your progress and joy in the faith, so that in me you may have ample cause to glory in Christ Jesus, because of my coming to you again." I understand what Paul meant! I understand why I do missions! You cannot do missions out of the right heart unless you yourself have received revelation of who Jesus is and that you have been placed on this earth for that being one of the purposes and once you receive the revelation though you can't wait to be with the Lord, you understand that you are here because He wants to use you to share His love. In other words, I have been falling more in love with God everyday and it has moved me to share Him even more! I love loving on God's people and seeing their eyes/hearts opened to His love for them!
Needless to say I have been moved deeply! I could go on forever sharing the things I have been learning in new depths. All I can say is as long as God will use me, I am going to worship and I am going to share His name because He is worthy of every breathe I have!
