On the Horizon

It's been a long time! But it's time to get back into the swing of things and share my thoughts,

and my conversations with God :)

Have you ever gotten that tug on your heart where you know it's time to go and things are about to drastically change in your life? That recently happened to me.

I have been working at Thomas Nelson Inc. for about 6 months now and when I got this job I thought, "Yay! I will finally be able to get my feet on the ground and maybe get my own apartment, and start my own life" thinking that is what would provide me contentment. Sadly, that plan I had for myself never seemed to ever present itself as a reality. Still struggling in many different facets of my life, and after hearing from many different people, that they thought it was time for me to go. I finally started to pray about the possibilities and what that would mean. Yes, I stopped planning my own life and started asking God for direction.

Well, He answered with a ton of bricks to my heart. I knew it was time to go, so what does this mean? Where should I go? I didn't want to go somewhere that I would have no support or ways to get plugged in. In my mind, I was like "ok, I'm moving, I will get a full time or a few part time jobs, wherever I go, so I can still try to continue paying off debt, and get my own apartment eventually." The location that seemed right was Jacksonville Beach, FL. I have connections down there, opportunities to get plugged in, and a place to stay for free. Note: at that exact time I would be going there, my best friends Sarah and Michael were going to be needing help. Michael will be departing to England for 6 weeks leaving Sarah and their twins by themselves for the time period. So my mind was made up, I was going, I was excited, and completely at peace about all of it. My family expressed no fears or worries, which made the decision even better. Not to mention I will possibly get to be apart of a ministry that is just like my dream ministry.

(FYI: In this process I wanted to make sure and go to all the people who were mentors, or leaders in my life and make sure I leave correctly, and respectfully.)

So the last mentor that I got to speak to was my Pastor David. Let's just say it went exactly how expected, but also in many ways was very painful. I left the meeting feeling confused, and doubting direction. I spent that evening, and the next 3 days in prayer in regards to the points that he had brought up, and seeking direction from God who would be the only one with wouldn't insert biases where they don't belong. Here is what I feel the Lord spoke.

1. I am supposed to go to Jacksonville Beach for at least 6 weeks to assist Sarah with their twins during the time that Michael is gone to England.

2. I am being called back into the missions field, and somehow Mumbai, India plays a roll. Scriptures that played into this, that when I read them during my quiet time gave me that uh huh moment: Romans 10:15, Isaiah 52.

3. That He is going to protect me: Psalm 121

So to summarize, what's on the horizon is that I am going to Jacksonville Beach April 1st knowing one thing, that God is going to direct me. Am I going to get a job... probably just so I can support myself for the time I'm down there, but it is looking like I am going to be going back on "faith-base" support living here in the upcoming future. I am looking/praying into the missions organization that is going to facilitate my getting back into the international field.

Stay tuned... I know this Journey is just beginning. And please be in prayer with me as I seek God's guidance.